This title violates all the blogging rules of making your tile "searchable" and "drawing in the readers interest", unless of course you have experience with treatment and you know that it means...END OF TREATMENT!
Can you tell I'm just a little bit happy?
I was thinking back to when I first started out on this long bumpy fog covered road, with only bits and pieces of a road map, like something a pirate would bury, hiding its elusive treasure. I found support systems online, The Hep C Nomads, Hepatitis Advocacy, The Liver Foundation, Facebook groups and more. I read posts from people who were where I am now, finally, blessedly at the end of the road and slowly coming out of the fog. I felt happy for them, and proud for them that they had made it through 48 weeks of basically being a stranger in your own body. But I found it nearly impossible to picture myself at that point, emerging from the place I was in, a place that felt out of time, out of sync with the rest of the world; a strange kind of limbo where nothing feels real. I could not see the end from "in there"
I read the words of encouragement from others who had made it through to the other side and even though it seemed so far away I was glad for the voices from the other side, the hope and strength they offered. I will always be grateful for everyone who has been with me on this journey. People in other countries who I have never met in "real life" who have given so much of themselves when they were so sick it was hard to even sit at the computer long enough to post. This is an amazing community and I intend to stick around to give back what I've been given, not out of obligation but of gratitude and great respect for everyone who travels this journey together holding hands through the fog.
I think I'm going to go shed a few tears now :)
Thank You all so much, words cannot describe what your support has meant to me.
Peace and Love to you all!
Jenny
© 2010 Jennifer Hazard
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Showing posts with label community. Show all posts
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Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
When Your Mind Has a Mind of it's Own
There have been so may times in life that I have held back my feelings, pushed them aside and pulled myself up by the bootstraps to carry on as the Brave Little Soldier. Some of us learn to do that at a very young age. There were things going on in my family, growing up that as the oldest I felt it was my duty to "pull it together" and carry on in order to protect my siblings. And besides, focusing on them was easier than experiencing my own fear and confusion. That response may serve it's purpose in the short term, but it comes with a high price tag in the long run. Fortunately I've learned a few things along the way and one of them is that those buried feelings have to come out and be acknowledged somehow. Ironically, being on treatment, sitting at home most days, I am immersed in the "opportunity" to experience my emotions, whether I like it or not.
To quote my fellow Hep C blogger Eva,
"Yet the mostly painful and disturbing thoughts or distorted fixations continued regardless of whether I wished to turn attention to more healing or cheerful possibilities" http://evaday.blogspot.com/

This is so accurate, our minds have a mind of their own, so to speak. There are thoughts and emotions we really have little, if any, control over. It frightens me to remember that some people become delusional and /or suicidal on this treatment. It's one more reason that we really need each other, and our friends and families, our medical providers, anyone close to us to try to understand that we need support, we need understanding and feedback.
I am so incredibly grateful for the people I've met along this crazy timeless path through the mist. I'm grateful for the others who write and blog and share their stories with courage and honesty. We've got a pretty good community going here. I guess we could say "it takes a village to raise a Hep survivor" I hope that new readers will find welcome and comfort in our little "village".
Peace,
Jenny
© 2011 Jennifer HazardImage courtesy of the Graphics Fairy
Monday, November 8, 2010
Stop Hep C-Resource Info.
Hello all,
Here is a link to the Chapman House Community Center located in S.C. I addition to providing services to the Elderly, disadvantaged, homeless and jobless they are also home to StopHepC, a non-profit organization providing education, prevention, support and advocacy for those with Hep C and Hep C/HIV co-infection. Please check out their resources page as there is lots of great information there. From what I can tell this is a fabulous organization and a model for more Hep C support programs nationwide! I'm really hoping to be able to get something like this going in my area; we have a lot to learn from organizations such as this to help us organize and advocate for ourselves! Keep on fighting the good fight!
Jenny
Stop Hep C
© 2010 Jennifer Hazard
Here is a link to the Chapman House Community Center located in S.C. I addition to providing services to the Elderly, disadvantaged, homeless and jobless they are also home to StopHepC, a non-profit organization providing education, prevention, support and advocacy for those with Hep C and Hep C/HIV co-infection. Please check out their resources page as there is lots of great information there. From what I can tell this is a fabulous organization and a model for more Hep C support programs nationwide! I'm really hoping to be able to get something like this going in my area; we have a lot to learn from organizations such as this to help us organize and advocate for ourselves! Keep on fighting the good fight!
Jenny
Stop Hep C
© 2010 Jennifer Hazard
Sunday, September 26, 2010
A Call for Unity
I tend to spend a lot of time on the Internet these days. Primarily because it's something to do and a way to connect with others that doesn't require money or energy, both of which are in short supply these days. Logically since this treatment seems to be dominating most areas of my life I've spent a fair amount of time connecting with others via forums, blogs, newsletters etc. I have also been on the quest for resources, support systems and advocacy both to help with my own personal needs and, well because as an Advocate/Social Worker it sort of comes naturally to me when faced with a problem or need to immediately start seeking out resources and solutions.
Online I have found some fabulous resources for information regarding Hep C and treatment, I have shared a few here on my page and will continue to do so. I have also found individuals and groups who are extremely supportive and and welcoming, in these cases the common bond of this disease has forged instant friendship and a network of information, empathy and experience.Buuut, ok here comes the 'but', I have also encountered misinformation, prejudice and a certain amount of "us" and "them" mentality when it comes to how the disease was contracted. Most will agree that one reason we don't get a lot of public support, publicity, huge funding drives etc. is that Hep C is viewed as a "junkie" disease, or somehow otherwise unclean, the result of carelessness and personal irresponsibility. I have actually heard more than one person say, I got sick from a transfusion because of some slimeball/junkie and their drug problem.
To a certain extent I can understand their frustration, you live a clean, orderly 'by the book' life and bam you end up getting this disease. Well guess what? You can lead that kind of life style and have any number of misfortunes occur. People who have never smoked end up with lung cancer, people end up with all sorts of horrible diseases and conditions without having "done anything to deserve it". I'm reminded of the Televangelist (I can't remember which one) who, back in the 90's said that AIDS was 'God's retribution for sinful and unnatural behavior". Holy Cow! I wondered if he had ever ministered to anyone who was dying of AIDS, if he had watched them suffer the pain and despair of the illness and the heartbreak it caused to their partners, families and friends as they stood by desperately trying to help, to comfort to do anything to try to stop the horrible suffering of their loved one. Of course there are still people who feel this way, but the public perception of AIDS has changed significantly over the last decade or so. So how was this accomplished/ First of all you've got some pretty big celebrities who came out with the disease. Then you've got other celebrities who have come out in support of their peers and who who have the money and media presence to actually make people sit up and listen. Then you have grassroots organizations who were dedicated and persistent enough to organize, educate and demand to be heard. Part of what fueled their unity was the reaction to such harsh, judgemental statements as those made by Conservative Christians; nothing creates a bond like a common enemy. But seriously, if the Hep C community is going to successfully unify, to demand money for treatment, research and supportive services we have to put aside our pride and defensiveness and division based on method of transmission. I mean really who cares how you got it? I rarely ask anyone how they contracted the disease, I want to hear about how it's affecting them now and what they're doing to cope. On the other hand I will be the first to admit that, yes, I made some reckless choices when I was younger, I did inject drugs and even shared works (equipment) with others. In 1979, no one had heard of AIDS or Hep C, at worst you might get Hep B but even that wasn't very common in my area. Does the fact that I had a drug problem mean that I deserve this disease? Believe me a drug problem already comes with plenty of negative consequences attached. Neither I, nor anyone I was using with at the time, would have knowingly donated tainted blood, so some innocent clean living person could get infected.
I'm putting out a call for Unity and Understanding. If individuals have resentments about contracting this disease "without doing anything wrong" those are valid feelings and can be discussed in an adult manner. But this separation and infighting is preventing us from moving forward in our demand for funding, treatment options and public respect.
We can't wait around for wealthy celebrities and PR people. We have to keep this ball rolling ourselves, to keep pushing to gain the momentum and the number of voices that will demand attention and response. I have noticed groups scattered about the country, some are really accomplishing great things; we need to learn from their models and apply their strategies to our own communities while also creating our own groups, organizations, community centers and public education campaigns, building upon each others strength and experience. It is only by working together with a common mission and respect for one another that we will dispel misconceptions, gain public awareness and truly begin to be viewed as a population of value, worth investing in, worth saving regardless of what circumstances brought us to this table.
I am working on organizing a group in my community and would love to hear from others who have thoughts, ideas, success stories, not-so-successful stories and anything else you would want to contribute to the discussion.
If you live in the Southeastern Wisconsin area and are interested in creating Community you may contact me by leaving a comment, or by email at nanakoosa@yahoo.com
Peace and Blessings,
Jenny
© 2010 Jennifer Hazard
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